Joy will come in 2011

We ended 2010 on a sad note. Last Thursday I miscarried our baby. It was such a shock for Chris and I because we thought everything was going so well for this pregnancy. I noticed some very minor bleeding the previous week and called my doctor. They sent me immediately to triage, when we got to the hospital they we unable to find a heartbeat and the ultrasound confirmed that the baby had passed away. The doctor gave us no answers as to "why" this happened. Losing a baby at any stage of pregnancy I'm sure is devastating but I was over 18 weeks along, so I thought I was out of the risk stage for miscarriage. It was especially hard to grasp this, and Chris and I are filled with tremendous sorrow and loss. Thankfully we received such great care from the doctor and nurses at the hospital and they were able to guide us through the process of losing a baby at a later stage in pregnancy. I truly believed God knew exactly what we needed to get through that night, because the doctor on call and delivery nurse were so consoling and made me as comfortable as possible. I was given medicine to deliver the fetus. I delivered at 4am that morning, the baby was girl, weighing only 2.5 ounces. As heartbroken as we are, I have found great comfort in my faith. It's so hard to understand God's purpose in this, but Chris and I believe that God has a perfect plan and will for our lives and he will carry us through our loss and sadness.

So as I ended 2010 with a great burden for the life that could have been, I'm so grateful for the many blessings in my life...Such a supportive, loving husband who is a man of great faith and strength, and a beautiful daughter who is so full of life and love. I'm also so grateful for my family and friends who have been there for us and lifted us up in prayer and given us encouragement. As we look ahead to 2011 we are filled with the hope that joy lies ahead as we continue to walk with the Lord.